Day 3, 4 and 5

Yep, did it again. Yesterday was super busy and I forgot I had no time between work and school to get day three done, so here I am doing three together in a post. Yay. I'll work on getting better at this. -.-

My current favorite song is "Stand in the Rain" by Superchick. Not completely sure why, but I just really like the lyrics and the music itself. I could imagine a good winterguard routine for it. :)

What did I eat today? Or I guess yesterday? Well mostly some pizza rolls and a little bit of cake. Yeah, we need to go shopping hardcore. Money is so tight. Time for Ramen!

My day? Well it's just beginning! And I think I shall celebrate my day just beginning, by going to sleep now, before I have to go to work, and then work on homework.

Hope everyone else has a good day/night. ^.^

Day 1 and 2

Yeah yeah yeah, I know... I meant to start the blog a day thingy, but it's been a super stressful past week with my twenty page paper and everything else starting to be due. So this is my official start, and catching up, by rolling day 1 and 2, all into the same blog. Go me!

My name is Holly Tritz, and I'm a senior English Writing major, with high hopes to graduate in May. I turn 22 on the 28th of December, and seriously doubt I will actually do anything birthday party wise. I've never smoked anything, and am only a rare and casual drinker. I'm in love with a boy I met over the internet and managed to close the distance between us almost two an a half years ago. Gaming is more than just a hobby, it's something I do to relax, have fun, pass time, and mostly procrastinate. Give me a good game, and I will play it all the way through as often as possible. Reading and writing are also some of my favorite things to do. In fact, as a younger kid, I used to get in trouble all the time for reading in class, when I should have been paying attention to what the teacher was saying, or something else.

Oh my first love... -sigh- I think my fist love was around when I was ten years old. One can argue that I didn't know what love is, but I think that if I kept that feeling for the person for a good ten years, I consider it love and not lust. We met at a skating meet and just sort of hit it off. We never really dated then, I mean we were 10 and 12 and lived three states apart. We lost contact for awhile, but it never really changed how I felt. I still wanted to be with him, and no not in a sexual way. Just the way... Oh I don't know how to explain it. Either way I suppose it doesn't matter anymore, because I have Stephen, and he makes everyday worth living, and keeps me looking towards tomorrow, even when I feel like there may not be one.

Woot. So that makes day one and two. Now I shall do homework, or attempt to, and I will continue this tomorrow. Yay.

Late Night

So I got home from work a little bit ago and have been attempting to study for my Latin test, but I can't seem to focus on it at all. So what do I do? I start trolling around Facebook and find a guy I know to be engaged with a baby due in January. Normally I wouldn't care too much, except this was a guy who I had been completely in love/smitten with, since I was like ten. We never actually dated until about three years ago, and then did so for only a few months, before I just felt like it wasn't going to work and such. This guy is someone I never would have expected to have a pregnant girlfriend outside of wedlock. I mean he was a good student, still doing the college thing I think, he worked all the time, is super close with his family, and a major church goer. Not that I truly care too much right now, but I can't help thinking that that could have been me in that position, and I am super thankful that is not me. I mean seriously, I don't really want any children, married or not. But if I did, I'd like to be married, and financially stable enough to do so. Besides, if I hadn't left that, then I wouldn't be with the amazing guy I'm with now. Stephen is my everything.

Anyway, I suppose I ought to get back to trying to study. I really need an A on this test, or at least a rather high B. I think the thing that sucks the most, is that I still have one more semester of Latin left, however the good thing is that I will finally be able to graduate in May. I'm absolutely ecstatic about it. All I have to do right now, is pass all of my classes this semester, finish enrolling in my final class for next semester, and then pass all of my classes next semester. Easier said than done, but my hopes are high. Here's to hoping they don't get crushed.

P.s
I know I forgot to start the blog thing, so I'm going to start it in December. It will be much easier since I don't have to worry about my 20 page paper as much, since a full draft is due on the 30th. I'll just be editing and such.

School

I most definitely hate it. I would give just about anything to be done with and never have to look at it again. I know it's supposedly going to get me a better job, and I can see how it would, but it just doesn't feel so worth it to me. It's hard to drag myself out of bed, and the apartment, and head to class, knowing I'm going to sit there bored for hours, and probably never apply half the stuff I'm being taught, to my future in any way, shape, or form. I mean I love my Freedom in Greece class, but I can't think of a single instance where I'd use the history knowledge from that course in my everyday life. Even in the future. I don't like writing history, so I don't think it would even come into play there. I don't know. Maybe I'm looking at it all wrong. Truly I just want to make it through though, and as much as I know I ought to try and get a Master's degree, I just can't find it in myself to sit through more years of college and such. Maybe I will later on in life, but certainly not right after getting my bachelor's. Now I shall go attempt to study and start that essay again. Though before I forget I'm going to try to start this blogging thing I took from Alyx's tumblr, so as to help me keep blogging and such. I'll start it the first of November though, but if I don't put it down somewhere I'll probably forget about it.

Day 01 – Introduce yourself
Day 02 – Your first love
Day 03 – Your favorite song
Day 04 – What you ate today
Day 05 – Your definition of love
Day 06 – Your day
Day 07 – Your best friend
Day 08 – A moment
Day 09 – Your beliefs
Day 10 – What you wore today
Day 11 – Your favorite book
Day 12 – What’s in your bag
Day 13 – This week
Day 14 – A childhood picture
Day 15 – Your dreams
Day 16 – Your last kiss
Day 17 – Your favorite memory
Day 18 – Your favorite birthday
Day 19 – Something you regret
Day 20 – This month
Day 21 – Your favorite movie
Day 22 – Something that upsets you
Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better
Day 24 – Something that makes you cry
Day 25 – A first
Day 26 – Your fears
Day 27 – Your favorite place
Day 28 – Something that you miss
Day 29 – Your aspirations
Day 30 – One last moment

Procrastination

It's not that I particularly want to procrastinate, but it seems that I just can't help it. I'm always finding "better things to do with my time" then the homework of the moment. The essay that I really need to start... I don't even have a real topic yet. It's supposed to be six pages long, which will hopefully be a start to my twenty page paper, but I just can't seem to find the motivation to sit down and do it. Even if I sat down and did a page a day, or hell even half a page a day, I would get it done rather quickly and still have time for other stuff. I just can't seem to make myself sit down and do it. Ugh. I can't wait to be done with college. I think I'm going to be saying that a lot, but if I'm lucky I'll get to graduate this spring. Who knows though. Luck isn't known for being on my side. I think I'm going to start some random story now. No promises on being good of course. But eh.

Two days in a row

Ah, it's a new record. Another blog. Anyways, Oklahoma's weather has finally started to get a bit cooler, though who knows how long that will last for, and I think I want to finally get back into shape. I had "tried" a bit over the summer, but it only lasted a week tops. I would love to be able to fit back into old pairs of jeans, or even just feel more comfortable with myself and not be winded whenever I walk up some stairs. xD It'll be tough for me, and I know it, but I really want to do it. Maybe I shall start walking at night, random sit ups and such during the day, and perhaps even some DDR or whatever else. I need to start looking for new jobs too. I'm a senior finally and I haven't put much effort into trying to get one. I guess mostly because I don't feel like I have much to put on a resume. I'm not involved in my college or community at all really. I just go to class, and go home. -sigh- I think I'm going to go look on Monster and whatever else right now.

Ah so she returns

Bet you never thought I would make another post huh? Well you were close to right, I honestly didn't think I would be making one either, but since I'm sitting on the floor outside of my "Freedom in Greece" class waiting for it to start, I figured I might as well. Life is good. Or as good as it can be I suppose. College takes up too much time; I truly cannot wait for it to be all over, and for me to be able to get a better job and pull myself out of my debt. I hate being dependent upon people, but it seems I must be while I'm stuck making minimum wage and not able to work the hours I need to be self sufficient. -sigh- Stephen wants to be able to move away to Colorado at some point after I graduate too. I'll have to save everything I can and work as much as possible to make that even a reality for us. Who knows though. I can't honestly imagine myself getting up and leaving my friends and family that have been here all my life, but he did it to come be with me, and I can't imagine my life without him, so if if he can do it, so can I. Here's to hoping I can keep that mentality. For now though, I think I shall leave off with a poem here, and possibly "attempt" to "start" one of my essays. Enjoy.


This Path

I walk a path I haven’t trod,
The way lit dimly for me to see.
I call out names in search of help,
Nothing is heard for miles to come.
I continue, restless, I won’t give in.
One day I will find it and reach the end.
The candles lit along the way,
Bring back thoughts that tend to stay,
Burning slowly, just like their lives,
Until time fades and the flame then dies.

After Work Winding Down

I suppose adding spaces is as close as I can get to indenting on this, but oh well. Where to begin... I can't say I have too many interesting things to say at this moment, as it is getting late again and I'm extremely tired after work, but eh. I suppose at the bottom of this post I shall put in a poem or something else I've written, since I made this blog because of two people I met on imvu. I know, I can't believe I actually downloaded the application either, let alone used it. It's become both entertaining and saddening in some aspects. I like meeting the few intelligent people on it, but others try to jump on you as soon as you pop into a room, it's rather unsettling in a way I suppose. You have to take the good with the bad though and just smile. I realize I'm rambling currently so I think I shall end this and possibly go to sleep.

Twin Lakes

The first rays of sunlight glimmered off the lake’s surface,
The loon’s call echoed throughout the still morning,
And a fish leapt into the air, leaving ripples in its wake.
Hummingbirds play in the nectar feeders on the porch,
While soft snores drift out to the porch from the bedrooms.

This is the scene I wake up to on the porch of the cabin.
Grandma flings open the blinds, and I huddle deeper into my blankets.
The cool summer air greets my sleepy face,
And I hear a woodpecker pecking at an oak trunk.
People begin to finally stir in the cabin behind me.

The smell of bacon and Grandpa’s French toast permeates the cabin.
It entices us to wake up and gather for a morning breakfast.
Couches folded back, sleeping bags rolled up,
The night has officially come to an end,
But the summer has just begun.