Thunder so massive that it shakes the ground beneath your feet? Oh yes please! I love thunderstorms. I love to listen to the rain fall outside, or on the roof. It's so calming and relaxing. ^_^

Just a Post

     I'm sure people are tired of hearing about the tornado in Moore, OK, but since I haven't written anything in awhile and such I just feel like putting my thoughts and whatnot down somewhere and decided my blog is as good a place as any.

      I woke up that morning, and the day was nice as can be. I hadn't checked the weather or anything, but it was sunny with the normal gusty winds of Oklahoma that I grew up with. I obviously didn't think anything of it as I drove to Walmart and got some dog food, oil and an oil filter so Bobby could change my oil, and a small pint of my favorite Ben &Jerry's Ice Cream. Shoot, I even got home and took some random goofy pics with Jude just cause.

      After Bobby took my car back to work with him, effectively leaving his in the driveway next to Danny's Rav-4, I went back to laying around on the day bed on the back porch and watched the Doctor Who finale, which I thoroughly enjoyed. After a couple hours I get a phone call from my mom telling me to start watching the weather because there was a tornado on the radar and she thought it was heading toward us. I'll admit, I've been through many, many tornadoes, to the point I would honestly say I was desensitized to them. I've had to take cover and done the millions of drills, but they've never gotten close enough to do damage to the house or those around me, until this one. I was at home with my youngest brother Danny, my grandmother, the five dogs and two cats, and I can honestly say I've never been scared of a tornado like I was this time. 

      My brother walked onto the porch, after being on the phone with my dad, and looked back at me and said, "Yeah... We should go take shelter now." I got up from the bed and looked out the window and my heart dropped a bit. I could see the sky darken, and the clouds spinning in the background. At that point, I grabbed a few things and began corralling the dogs into the bathroom and getting my grandmother in there as well. Right as we got just about everyone in there Jude decides he doesn't want to be in there and takes off towards the back door. I chased after him because I couldn't grab him, since I had taken off his harness earlier that day. When I got to him, he was at the backdoor and I could feel my heart take off. I could see so much dust and dirt being kicked up and the windows starting to be blacked out due to mud being flung up on them. I grabbed Jude and ran back to the bathroom and sat on the floor in that very crowded room. Yes, I know I should have been in the bathtub, and grabbing all the pets probably wasn't going to help if we got hit, but it couldn't be helped. 

       Those minutes we were in there dragged on forever. It was hot and stuffy and I tried to keep from panicking as I clutched my phone and listened to the roar of the tornado come closer to us. The power flickered on and off again until we heard a rather large "thunk" on what I thought was the roof, and then it went completely black. I could hear things being tossed around and the tornado's roar as it moved along the ground. That was the first time I can honestly remember being scared of a tornado, the first time I worried about if it would truly hit my house and if we would all make it out of it alive and unharmed. I am so very thankful that we did. When the sound moved off and we no longer heard the wind or the sounds of things moving around, we slowly moved out of the bathroom and my brother and I went out to the front yard. Originally, I didn't know how bad this tornado truly was. Our house sustained minimal damage between windows being busted out in the vehicles and the roof, well and the trees and shrubs and such being ripped apart, we had it easy. I only realized just how bad it was when I went to check on Meagan's dad, two blocks from us. Thankfully he was alright and his house fared much better than those around him, but I was shocked. I couldn't believe I was still walking through the neighborhood I had grown up in and spent so many years of my life in. This is the view I saw looking out from his driveway.

      Once I got back to my house I learned that both my old Elementary School, Briarwood, and Plaza Towers got hit by this deadly tornado. A total of 24 people were killed and 237 were injured. Completely unreal to me. I frantically kept trying to get texts and calls out to not only let people know that me and my family were alive and alright, but to try and find out how other people fared. I expected it to be bad, obviously, but the feeling of disconnect due to it was kind of unreal. I felt helpless in not knowing how I could help or let people know how we ended up. It was crazy to watch trucks with beds full of children from Briarwood come down the street to take the kids to a safe spot half-way back into the neighborhood.

      At Danny's graduation, which wasn't canceled although Bobby's was, there was a large group of people that held up a picture of a girl as one of the kids walked across the stage. We didn't know or understand til the next morning, that the pictures were actually of that child's mother, who didn't make it through the tornado. I almost cried in hearing that. I couldn't imagine how hard that would be, and what it would be like to be in that situation. My heart wept for the graduate and her family...

       I'm not often the very sentimental or emotional type, but I kinda just had the urge to write and here's what came out. People don't understand why I'd move back to Oklahoma, which I do plan on doing when my lease is up, but it's my home and always has been. Now there's plenty to help my family and friends with back home as well. I can't wait to do it.

      Well Mother's Day was nice. Got to chase Jude all over the dog park and get a bit burnt in the face, but it was all in good fun. I need to look around for a nice-ish lake that has a sand bottom versus all the mud. Then I could actually go out into the water with Jude. Swimming would be lovely. Time for me to crash though, so tired.

Mother's Day

     First and foremost, happy mother's day to all those who happen to stumble across my blog or continue to read it for the kicks and giggles. Secondly, and most importantly, happy mother's day to my mom whom I will sadly not be able to see yet.

      I am probably the biggest procrastinator you will ever meet, and I am the absolute WORST when it comes to mailing things out on time to absolutely anyone, so I decided this would be my little mother's day gift instead.

      This is my gorgeous, wonderful mother, with my father of course. It's hard to find all the words that would describe my mom. Kind, compassionate, intelligent, resourceful, dependable, amazing. I would use so many more, but they would become repetitive and redundant. My mother is honestly the strongest woman I know, and the only person I can honestly say that I really look up to. I would be lucky and happy to be even half the woman she is today. She brought four unruly children into the world and has been able to watch as each grows up and becomes a (mostly)civil adult, hehe (we were all so cute back then, bahahaha).

      While other little girls were stuck taking dance and piano lessons, I was the lucky one who got to do figure skating, on rollerskates! My mother and father were my absolute biggest supporters with anything from the seven a.m. practices, to the large amount of time it took for my mom to get me ready before a meet. I used to be able to sit on my hair it was so long, and she managed to take that beast into a presentable bun and get it to stay put for hours, not to mention trying to get me to stay still long enough to paint my face all pretty, that took effort. She was also the one who took me to many skating meets. If my father couldn't get enough time away from work, then my mom would drive me to the meet herself which could be states away. granted, I don't remember many when my father wasn't there, but I think there were a couple.

      As I personally continued to group up, I managed to find all sorts of clubs and activities and such to throw my time into, when I wasn't wanting to play my video games, heh. She was always a major supporter of the band and every thing I possibly wanted to do and could possibly do. I honestly couldn't ask for any more. I know when I was younger, I definitely took this for granted, but I appreciate it all more than she will ever know. I see everything she does now and continues to try to do for everyone, and I'm just amazed that any one person can do so much. She makes me so very proud to call her mom. She has done great raising us and taking care of us, and our friends, and now her mom. I only wish I could do more for her. she taught me so many things, including the ability to handle each situation with tact and grace. Well... I may still fail in that department, but it's good for a few laughs (yes, this goat was trying to eat my jacket).

      I miss my family a lot being up here and so far away, but that just means I cherish the time I get to spend with them when I'm there. I'm not one who like to admit my weaknesses, but that last hug before leaving and then walking away unsure of the next time I will get to see her is one of the most heart breaking feelings ever. I don't think there has ever been a time where I didn't cry because of it. I can definitely say I've had my differences with her growing up, but I know I wasn't always right and she wasn't always wrong. I was just blinded by youth and lack of experiences to understand it, and know that everything she ever did was to try and help me, to push me forward. I love my mother to death and hope she is having the best mother's day, and hopefully this counts just as much as a card, because I'm horrible at those, heh.

     I feel like I start to look like her more and more. This picture just hit me with it when I looked at it. Made me smile, hehe.

     "We feel as if we must make a choice now, whether or not we are ready. Although the spontaneous Aries Moon provokes immediate action, we could choose unwisely if we forget to take our time before making promises we can’t keep. Additionally, the Moon’s harsh alignments with wild Uranus and passionate Pluto set us on an emotional roller coaster. It’s hard to settle our feelings down since needy Venus in stubborn Taurus stirs up even more stress."


      Really daily horoscope? You make today sound even worse than I'm pretty sure it already will be... The hell...

     Rewatching all of Doctor Who again, like a boss. It's something that usually keeps my mind occupied at least, and let's face it, Doctor Who is amazing.