I can definitely say that feeling like you're alone is the worst. Blah. I need a good paying job pronto so I can get this show on the road.

      That moment where you stare aimlessly at your computer because you can't manage to fall asleep, and your mind lingers on just one thing... I wish I could just fall asleep but my mind and body say that is absolutely not a choice. I could lay in bed for hours and it doesn't help me at all. most obnoxious thing ever... Maybe I'll see about investing in some Zzquil or whatever it's called now. Something's gotta give.

       Happened to see this gem on a friend's Facebook. Seems pretty easy to relate to to me.

      Guess I'm getting worse at keeping up with this but maybe I'll try to write more now that I'm back home in Oklahoma. Things are definitely different. Last time I was here the tornado had ripped through and wiped out so much. I just about miss the entrance to my neighborhood every time I'm out driving, because where there used to be houses, there is absolutely nothing but grass and weeds. It's a bit disheartening to see, but I am happy to be home. I love the company of the dogs, and I have to do whatever I can to push myself back on my feet and get to a point where I can help to create the future I want. I know it's always hard as hell starting and definitely hard on your own, but I know it won't be that way forever and I have to do my part to help me get to that point. I am ready for it though. Ready to be back in a good place. Ready to get to where I want to be. Ready to close a gap that will be around for far too long. Here's to new beginnings and possibilities, to pushing oneself to be better and more than you or anyone else expects. Here's to moving in a real direction of my own choosing.