Hmmm... I am quite possibly the worst at conveying not only how I feel, but not pushing people backwards. I guess by backwards I also mean away. Getting too close? Well, we can't have that so clearly walls must be quickly built up around myself. Seems silly when I think about it, but when I look at my life, I can also clearly see how true it is. I often delve deeply into books, into games, or into some other activity and block out half the world around me. I'm not entirely sure whether that's because I enjoy them, which I deeply do, of it's easier to escape conversations or whatever else. Then again, I could just be an odd duck. I'm pretty good at that too. Heh. Though it could also just be the random ramblings of a still semi tipsy girl at 3:30 in the morning.

On a totally unrelated note, I now have 100 followers on my stream! Huzzah!

Six Months

     Wow, six months already. I don't think I could be happier at the moment. Normally, I am the absolute worst with keeping up with dates, particularly birthdays and anniversaries, but I suppose it's just that the little things seem to count so much more being in an LDR. Anyone who thinks that being in one is an simple as one with your next door neighbor, or even in the same city, has clearly never been in one. It's tough, never getting to see your significant other, or get to spend much time with them outside of major visits. Two major visits, that's all I've been able to have so far with a third coming up soon, and while both lasted for 5+ days, it's just not enough. Date nights are always video games or movies, when all you can do is be on a computer. Obviously it's not the end of the world when you enjoy those things, like I do, but there's still a lack of physical contact. No holding hands, no hugs, no proximity. It makes me even more grateful for all of the little notes, pictures, and video calls in between. I feel lucky to even have what I do. In the end, it's worth it. =)