Sometimes, I look back and I am amazed with how much has changed within the past year, let alone say the past ten. People come into your life, make a lasting impression, and then leave in the blink of an eye. Those who find enjoyment and worth in your company/friendship, stay a little longer if you let them in and don't push them away. There in lies the problem. You think, "Everyone else has slowly distanced themselves and gone on their own way, so what would make this any different? Why should I let my walls down and someone else in, just to be let down and walked away from again?" Doesn't seem worth it, does it? That in itself, is also a problem. When no effort is put out, and no one is allowed to be close, of course they won't stick around. It becomes an endless cycle, and either you find that one person, or more, who will put up with it long enough for you to get comfortable and break it down yourself, or there needs to be a break in the wall. Some crack, no matter how small, to let someone start to see through.

     Where I was going with that/this, honestly not sure... Just one of those writings while on a desk shift at work.