•Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Normally, I wouldn't care to do this... But in a way I feel like blowing off a little bit of steam, so I'm going to anyways. It honestly takes a bit to hurt me, only because I've learned to harden myself as much as possible, but boy you two managed to take the cake. It was so weird. I would go from talking to you both for hours on end, night after night, to barely talking to one, and the other literally ignoring me altogether. That hurt. I've never been dropped so completely like that. It was like I went from being "worth it" to absolutely "nothing." Not worth the time and effort to talk to, to even be friends with anymore. To think it was all over another person, for each. I think the person I knew of hurt the most, because I know how that person is, and to go from talking to just about nothing for that, felt absolutely ridiculous. It also hurt because I'm not the only one who can see the things that person does. So many other people see it, so many know it's not going to change. People are afraid to say it to you because they don't want you to blow up or anything, but man, they sure think about it and are willing to say it to other people. I'm sorry I couldn't be good enough to hold your attentions and be worthwhile enough to keep it. It doesn't matter now though. Sure it still hurts, but someone else is helping to ease the pain and resentment I feel right now. I wanted to hate you both at first, so much I did, but I couldn't and can't bring myself to do it. Maybe things will change and go back. Maybe they won't. Either way, I feel the need to harden myself even more to a certain degree. You obviously thought I wasn't worth the time, so you both obviously weren't worth mine.
Sincerely,
~Holly
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