Blarg...

     Well, it's been a week since I last wrote something so I think I'm due to write a new post. Besides, I feel so tense I just need to do something. It feels like a rare thing when I'm truly good enough, or do something right. I try, quite a bit, but it doesn't really feel good enough. I just feel like I'm being a letdown somehow. This is probably part of the reason I try to stay quiet, to keep to myself. I feel like I'm sounding very pessimistic, and depressed, but I'm not at all. It's just the reality of how I feel at the moment. That mixed with being homesick as hell again. I can't wait until my family comes up here to visit, even if it is just my mom, but I just miss Oklahoma in general... I don't know what I want to do right now. Guess I have a good ten months  to think about it...