Helpless

      It's hard to not feel that way when you watch the strongest woman in your life breaking down. She does so much, or at least tries to, and rarely gets the appreciation or help she deserves. She can't continually do it all on her own and it really makes me want to be here even more to help. She cooks and cleans and helps out scrubs with their homework and projects, then gets talked down to and told that her help isn't wanted. I can't stand to see my siblings say things like that. Granted, I know that I was never the best growing up, but I have learned and gained a deep appreciation for everything that she does. She has taken in her mom due to dementia making it impossible for her to live on her own, and is constantly trying to make trips up to New York, where she previously lived, to try and clean up the house my grandmother lived in. That is no small task as my grandmother was a bit of a hoarder of memories and such when my grandfather died, but she still tries to get as much done as she can on her own. To watch/hear her cry and all I can do is give her a hug and offer to help in any way I can even for the short while I'm here, is just heart-breaking. I want to be able to do so much more for her and  be able to help her out... Just feel helpless...