Happy New Years everyone! As I look back on the year I realize I can only classify it as a single thing, the biggest roller coaster ever. So many things have happened the past year, both good and bad, so there's no way I could just label it as one or the other and leave it there. I think I've decided to make myself a few resolutions, for once, and then make the best attempt possible to stick to them. I'm only human, so I expect myself to make a few mistakes with it (just being realistic), but I won't continually use that as some excuse to get out of it. The bonus of putting them around here, is they're written somewhere where I know that they're there and can look back on them and hold myself accountable to them. Anyways, without further ado, these are my resolutions:
1. To actually use my blog more. I'm not talking like once a month or something. My goal is for once a week, if not more. I will find some way to set aside even the smallest amount of time to just make a summary of the week, or write something more thoughtful and meaningful. Heck, maybe I'll write some random poetry again. I won't let myself get distracted too much by my video games, by work, by movies, and by the internet in general. I'll stick by it.
2. To get myself into shape. No, I'm not talking about losing 30 lbs, building mega muscles, or going on some extreme diet. I'm just talking about being physically fit and feeling okay with myself. I want to be comfortable in my own skin. I want to be able to walk a lot more for longer periods of time. I wouldn't say I feel like death afterwards, but I don't want to feel super winded or anything either. I'd like to be able to not feel so self-conscious about myself when I wear shorts or a bathing suit or anything. I can imagine people would say that it shouldn't matter what anyone else besides myself thinks, but the reality is I haven't quite mastered that, and I've been attempting it since high school.
3. "We Accept the love, we think we deserve."
― Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower
This quote hit me right in the heart strings when I finally got around to watching the movie. I would have to agree that it is true too. People can tell us how wonderful and amazing we are, and how we deserve the world and whatnot, but if we think too low of ourselves, then it just doesn't sink in. My goal is to believe more in my self worth, become more confident in the choices I make and things I do, not just second guess everything or continually put myself down and blame myself for things that aren't wholly my fault or may be beyond my control. I want to be able to accept the affections shown to me without downplaying it as to something more than I deserve.
4. I want to put more effort into writing something to be published. This can come in the form of writing a novel, some short stories, poetry, or a children's book. I went to school for writing, I now have an amazing job in a library, and I want to put it all to use finally. I have written random things here and there, but I want this year to be the one where I put something together completely and do something with it. This year, I want to be productive. No getting distracted, no putting it off for another day.
5. While this should be number one, I'm just writing them down as they come into my head, but I absolutely want to get rid of the small debt I have. If this means I have to get two jobs, then so be it. I don't want it to grow any, and I don't want to have to continually worry about it. If I ever manage to find myself in a relationship that lasts, I don't want the baggage of a debt to be brought along with me. I want to be able to save my money more and not continually stare at the debt and watch my money sink into it. That WILL be eliminated this year.
Hmmm I guess those are the main things for now. Maybe I'll add more later or something, but this will do for now. I can't lose them and forget about it. I will stick to them. Here's to the start of a new, and better, year.
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